I dont know if its a phase or just me?

since like age 8 when my parents got divorced, i have been a mixture of homacidal as well as suicidal......im always depressed and i have major problems i know i need help with but im afraid to ask fo...

lamborghini_1	just ask someone for help. I know it can be hard to but just do it. It will be the best for you and the people around you

white dove	its you and it will not fix its self!!!!!first and hardest step you have already taken! take another now and regardless of how things are treated you will feel better. i think that you may fear being locked up and all that. well, think about the other locked up where there is in reality not much chance for true help, plus the guilt of what you'd of done to get there. to yourself or someone else. seems you wouldn't really want hurt someone else but its very likely if you do not get some assistance medically with this. hell, you may even get some pills that are the wonder drug and make all those bad thoughts just go away. it could be that simple you won't know till you goooooooooooo!!!!!!! please go for you and us. thank you!!!!!

nirvanagrlb	when i was younger i had a lot of family problems during this time i had suicide thoughts i even got past writing the note but something made me realize ,what about 2morrow life has its moments good and bad dont ruin everything over a bad moment and im glad im here 2day because even though i get sad i still enjoy those good moments that everybody has.focus on yourself make yourself a better person focus on education friends and a future. and dont dwell on things you have no control over and there is tons of help out there maybe you need to be on a antidepressent and counseling but if you ever freak yourself out by having suicidal thoughts get help fast

ValleyViolet	What you are describing is considered a medical emergency, regardless of how long it has been going on. Do not depend on it automatically going away. Get professional help. Call the crisis or information and referral line in your community.

nannygoat	You need help, call a counselor

GTO	You need to mature now and seek help before you mass murder innocent people.

krispiemeow	sadly its you!!! you need to get help bc your going to do something you regret, its not fair to you that you have to suffer....asking for help is scary but its not hard, and trust me...once you get it, youll be just fine, i promise

~Sinfully~Exquisite~Stalking~	Well if your recognize it as an issue its probley not a phase, Don't be afraid to ask someone for help, Just put your foot down about NOT taking medications....It doesn't sound like you need it... Ask for professional help and when they start asking about meds tell them that meds didn't get you into this mess, and they wont help get you out of it, You have to deal with the rational world by being rational...-hugs-

Bwood	well there are anonoymous, im a bad speller teehee, hotlines out there that you can call and talk to them about your problems and you can keep your identity a secret!! homacidal and suicidal intentions are never something to be over looked because of embarrassment....i can garauntee that you will feel a lot better once you start talking to someone on an everyday bases about your problems.....i went through the same thing when i was14 however i was having those thoughts because i was raped....but thats another story...but i got over my embarrasment and finally talked to someone and TRUST me it helps!! good luck sweety

lil_bit_nv	need to seek some kind of professional help.

elymaloa	get help see a counselor

rense	I'm voting for the counselor.

kingjakedgr8	Depending on how old you are. If you are already a couple of years older or much older you may want to go to a councelor. Because at first it might be a "shock" but if it keeps up than a councelor is a good idea...

bejewelled1	its not a phase u need to see a doctor or close frind even ring lifeline to be annonymous.

shadowcat	-_-; If you're asking about it here, it'll probably be attention-seeking.

jmiller	Definately see a counselor. Find one who specializes in depression. Feeling suicidal and or homicidal is not a healthy thing. Please, do something nice for yourself, and seek help. Good luck to you.

Informer	counselor

Minister of Peace	It's not a phase!!! I suffered just the same as you for nearly 30 years because I didn't have the guts to seek a counselor. Well, finally I went to my regular dr. and She gave me a prescription and it worked so well that when I went back she said I'd have to get an appt with a mental health provider. So, to get my pills, I did that and it was the best thing I ever did. Please don't suffer for that long and please don't kill---you or anyone else. Please call your dr and ask for a referral. You will thank me later ---said by MONK!

SAMI	Please consult a professional.

BOBCAT	Depression can be a really hard thing to deal with. As for your question, Is it you or just a phase? I believe it is neither. Depression is and can be a mental illness brought on by a traumatic experience in life. Such as a death in the family, divorce of parents (especially for young children). Never be afraid to ask for help. If you don't, you WILL regret it. I recommend not only personal counseling, but spiritual counseling, also. This will help you make sense of your feelings and emotions. As far as you being suicidal, no one; and I mean NO ONE looks cool or good or anything in a coffin ready to be buried. Death and suicide are definetly not the answer.

Yamuna V	find ur self

Adam S	Please call a counselor- or contact someone you trust who will sincerely engage you.

madamtortuga	in todsys world it seems like depression is an epidemic especially in youngpeople.today i think you might need to see a really good counselor however if you have doubts rest assured that there are many good ones and they are nothing to be afraid of and there is nothing you can tell them that they havent heard before.

BabyMuffin	By asking for help this is the first step to recovery. Knowing you need help. You will be a better person for asking for help. And you can help someone else maybe without ever knowing.Because someone you know may be going threw the samething and just need to see that they too can get help.

Someone 2 good	Don't worry you shouldn't be embarrassed some people r like that! You can talk to a counciler, but if u r 2 afraid, talk 2 a friend or family member. Who knows even a therapist can help! It ain't good to keep that bottled up! Find something you really enjoy 2 do and make it a hobby and spend time on it. It'll help u forget your troubles.

milesigo	depression get ome help and just relax and focus on harmony in your life

Canela	Then you either need a trip to a mental health facility- just temporary -so they can help you identify your emotional problems and help you cope in a healthyer way...you can get assistance in an outpatient settling too.There is nothing wrong with asking or getting help.But if you already killed someone else -then what you need is a trip to Jail and still will ask for some emotinal therapy.Good luck.

Yahoo! Answers Moderator	get help.

Wizzard2	Suicide is not a phonse, its rather permanent/

wanker	see a shrink for the good of the society. we don't want a serial killer lurking around. cheers!