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What is wrong with me? I am seeing a mental health nurse for the first time but the apointment isn't til june and i feel like i am going crazy so does anyone have the same or no what might be goi...

What is wrong with me? I am seeing a mental health nurse for the first time but the apointment isn't til june and i feel like i am going crazy so does anyone have the same or no what might be going on. I am happy one moment and the next will feel so sad, empty alone etc. One monday i can be is the worse mood where i want to curl up and die but after an hour i am laughing etc. I have a such low self esteem and i HATE myself, everything i say is wrong so i choose not to talk much to people. One moment i can like someone but the next i can feel hatred towards them which makes me feel awful and guilty. I also have a phobia of going out as people judge me and i think they will hate me as much as i hate myself. Please help and don't answer by saying see a doctor as i am. Also when i get disappointed in myself i get into such a mood i cant even describe, i get so angry and last time i cut myself. I rememer cutting myself but i cant really remember the mood just know it was bad.
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what are the symptoms of bipolar?

sugarboo	well im guessing u can't feel too bad since ur name is "happy"..anyways..i have been through this before and saw my doctor and he prescribed me lexapro it will calm u down so u don't worry about little things that don't matter..good luck!! = )

Katie	maybe you depressed. my advice is to stay away from sharp objects and move up the appointment!

Doctor Foo	you're a female. That all seems about right.

Bryony	It could be a mix of hormones. I get this sometimes but i try and forget about it and listen to music. Nothing is wrong with you hunny you just have mixed moods its totally normal.

Nikkibaby=]	ok ok. well it sounds like your in the same boat that i was in last year when i still went to a normal high school. i also cut myself, only when i felt really shitty, though, like from relationships and what not. now i go to an independent studies school and it helped me alot. but it sounds liek you may have social anxieties, as well as self esteem issues, and even just mood swings... you might even be clinically depressed due to a chemical imbalance. do you feel liek you have an adequate reason to feel the way you do? or you just do? have you always been like this?

PinHead	if your that worried wait until you see the nurse all these people who "diagnose" bipolar make me cringe,

Sepideh C	you sound bipolar.

Tanmoy	Seems very much Bipolar to me . Do see a DOC , as for your low self esteem etc , you need to relax a bit , dont think too much . Just chill and look at things from a ordinary / less expectation perspective . If you would like you can read my blog :)

Badkitty	It could be a multitude of things, chemical imbalance, depression, bi polar, etc... All of these can be helped with medication and therapy. When you see your doctor be totally honest and let them know everything you are feeling. It is nothing to be ashamed of and lots of people go through some of the same things you are. I wish you the best, hang in there.

bdell26	Okay just throw away all cutting things. Then turn on the tv and watch jorge lopes thats what helps me!

Carlita	I don't think it's bipolar if it's a rapid change from one moment to the next... I'm no expert but know someone who's bipolar. Maybe it has to do more with an anxiety disorder, which can co-exist with depression, so you might also have depression as I also have family history of depression and recognise some of the symptoms you describe. As I said I'm no expert, just answering from experience and I don't even think a psychiatrist would be able to diagnose with a more in-depth description

brilock1	you appear to have massive mood swings that can be caused by many things. You have a family history in depression and you may be experiencing the early stages or even advanced. Keep yourself as calm as possible and make sure that you attend that appointment. There is lots of help out there for you. Good Luck.

Aralyn	You're NOT crazy. Your body is reacting to physical and emotional changes that you're finding hard to cope with emotionally- normal! It's great that you're seeing a mental health nurse, and don't feel crazy because of that. They'll help you cope with your problems on an emotional level. Their goal will be to focus on emotional problems that are bothering you, problems you probably don't even realize are really bothering you. It might take a long time, but don't be hard on yourself. Tell yourself, "Ok, I just laughed, then threw something at the wall... I need to handle this situation better next time. But for now, I'm going to laugh about it..." I would also talk to the doctor about medication that can help control your mood swings and make them less severe (very normal for a woman). My sister and I went through similar problems growing up. We turned out more than okay. You will too. Be patient, give it time, and don't give up. My thoughts are with you!

Ashley S	I'm kinda like a less intense version of u. Like i always feel one way then the other up and down and my friends are begining to hate me becasue one minute i'll be talking constantly and the next i'll be looking away and feeling upset. I dont think there is anything wrong with u, u might have a minor mental health problem, i cant tell u what cause im not a therpist, im a 14 year old, but i have seen a theripist a few times about my problems. Hope this helps.

shaneo485	Sounds like depression to me..You are not alone in how you feel even though you feel that way you just have to trust me on that one.....when you get angry please don't hurt yourself I don't know you but i care that you feel that way you should go for a walk on a nature trail or along the beach when you feel like that. connecting with nature really puts thing in perspective for me.....Good luck with your life I hope you find what your looking for

2godly4no1	that totally sounds like bipolar-manic depression.it experiences high's and lows of your mental mood.are you on birth control? does anyone know of how you're feeling? go to webmd.com and type in depression and make a few notes in a diary and by the time your appt is here you can give your doctor the diary and he can make a judgment of what type of personal treatment is right for you.as for the cutting,girl i hate hearing that....stop doing that self harm s^h^i^t to yourself...that's for cowards!!!! your by far not a coward!!!! your a bright person and very intelligent inside and you are just going through what most of this messed up world we all live in is going through....some need the help and some just don't want to except they are in need of personal professional help due to an ego.i still have days like that where i feel if i wasn't here for my family everyone would be better off w/o me and raise my kids and cheer's to that,but i try and make the best of it with what I'm on and put on a fake smile and hope one day that smile will not be a fake smile!!! i hope you get better!

Lola	Sorry sweetheart! I know that the time between setting up a dr's appointment and actually getting in is so unbelievably hard. My husband and I both struggle with depression and my husband waited till he absolutely couldn't stand it any longer before making a dr's appointment. Then, of course, it was another month before he could actually get in. He got really really bad (self-destructive/suicidal) and we ended up taking him to the hospital, so, if you get to a point where you're in danger, you might need to go to the hospital. Otherwise, try to hang in there, I know it's really really hard. Especially when you know help is just around the corner. Try to hang out with supportive people, try exercising if you can, I find that can help. The thing that has helped me the most is immersing myself in a positive activity like reading or crafts or whatever. If you can get your hands on a book before you get to the dr, that might help, too. Feeling Good is a really good one. Good luck, hang in there! I know how you feel

Elle	It sounds like bipolar disorder to me. Bipolar is where you have major mood swings, like you're happy one minute and then you're sad the next. Sometimes bipolar's do cut themselves, as a way of getting their anger out. Its a very hard thing to cope with. Just remember, cutting yourself is not the answer. Yes, it may be a good way to deal with pain, but its not helping the problem. Try taking your anger out on a pillow or something that cant actually be hurt. When you feel an angry mood comming on, take a walk, or go to a quiet place where you can rest and try to solve the problem. Keeping a journal also might help. Stay strong... you can fight through this.

Pongo	Hello, I have no idea what's wrong with you, as none of us are experts here. Just try to remember that you're not alone, even though it may feel like it at times. You seem to have got a good response to your question, so people are thinking about you :)

dvoores	Ok, first thing, try getting a journal and keeping track of your moods. That may help your nurse to diagnose you. It sounds like you may be bi-polar.

star	i dont know much about these things but it sounds like bipolar disorder. there is treatment for it, and you will feel better.

Sightseeing	You need to see a mental health professional to get a correct diagnosis. But, to me it sounds like either bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder (the symptoms overlap and it's possible to have both).

gotta luv da Li	You do need a doctor to diagnose you. Here ppl can just guess. What I'm guessing is that a bunch of ppl will say bipolar because you said feel happy and feel sad. The realisty is that bipolar mood states rarely shift in less than a week, usually it's longer than that. What you are describing almost sounds like Borderline Personality Disorder or something along those lines but probably not the full disorder. Try to relax, take deep breaths, and take solace in knowing that you do have an appt coming up.

becca	sounds like either depresion or bipolar disorder..... go to webmd.com and you might be able to put in your symptoms

Ginger	It's not bi-polar because the mood swings for bi-polar are over a longer period of time. It could be lots of things but your best bet is to wait for the appointment and talk to the nurse about it. Many mental health problems have very similar symptoms and it can be difficult to differentiate between them. The possible name of your problem isn't important and won't help you to feel better. You say that you are already seeing a Dr - can you ask him/her to bring forward your appointment with the mental health nurse? Is there a day centre you can go to? A help line or crisis number you can call? Make sure you tell the Dr and the mental health nurse that you have self-harmed. It might be helpful to write about how you are feeling - both the good and the bad. If you read back over the bad times maybe it will help you to isolate what was going on and find a negative thought that you can challenge. When you are feeling bad reading something you wrote when you were happy will help you to recognise that life isn't always bad and will help you to work your way through the bad patch. Good luck.

tinkiebruiser	sounds like bipolar disorder and social anxiety disorder.. In a nutshell, bipolar disorder is extreme mood shifts...you could be super happy one minute and extremely sad the next...

Matt's Girl	I feel horrible for you...you sound bi-polar but that is a term used so often. I would wait for testing from your doctor, no one else will be able to accurately tell you what is wrong except a doctor. Good Luck and stay positive!

Dolly Blue	I know you have said "don't tell me to see a doctor" and I understand that you already have and will be seeing a mental health nurse. However June is a long way off and in the meantime you are suffering badly. Go back to the doctor and tell him how you feel, maybe they could arrange a earlier appointment or at least prescribe something to help. It sounds like you have a clinical depression problem and nothing I can say can help you. You need to ask the doctor for help now. I am sorry I can't help more but I do hope you feel better soon and get the right help !!!!

T	You could be bipolar. Read about it on wikipedia.org

Ginny	Sounds like bipolar disorder to me, what used to be known as manic depression. Of course, this is Yahoo, not a medical advice column. The rapid change in mood is a bit atypical of bipolar. Seeing a doctor will help with both diagnosis and treatment, so good for you for recognizing it. They will probably give you a prescription (or two!) to regulate your mood swings. Hopefully that'll help too. In the meantime, the important thing to drill into your head when you're on your "down swing" is to talk about what's bothering you when it's bothering you - to friends, to family, to a sympathetic listener at the bus station - anyone who will show some compassion will help relieve the pressure. Seek out your support system (no matter how alone you may feel, you DO have one, even if it's only a couple of people) and let them be there for you in your time of need. Also, make a list of things you like about yourself (even the most vile person on the planet has a few things to like!) and refer back to the list whenever you are having really low self-esteem moments. That may sound lame, but when you are really down, you may be glad you made the "lame" list. Exercise - even little walks - is proven to produce endorphin, a mood-enhancing chemical. Take advantage of it. Oh yeah, of course, don't cut yourself! That solves absolutely nothing. Invest in a stress ball or something you can squeeze the heck out of or hurl at a wall to relieve the pressure and frustration. Remember your "down" moments are exactly that, moments. You WILL get through them.

*~sakura~*	Could either be depression or bipolar disorder. Try not cut yourself again, there are other ways of getting out what you're feeling and you'll regret cutting yourself after you've recovered from whatever you're suffering. Believe me, I have hundreds of scars from self-harm. If you feel like hurting yourself again, distract yourself. Go for a walk, watch a film, read a book, phone a friend. If you really can't stop thinking about it, put an elastic band round your wrist and snap ping it against it. It will give you the same effect without the actual harm. I hope you'll be ok til you get your appointment with your MHN, you just need to wait. Seeing the MHN will really help, you'll feel better. If you ever want to talk, just e-mail me on this. Stay strong.